The other night I had to go to a big social event in town where I was expected to give a little speech. That’s not really a big deal for me anymore. It was only in front of a couple hundred people and it’s not like I haven’t been on stage before because of my past dance performances. Really, that’s not what exhausts me or stresses me out.
What does utterly exhaust me is social interaction. When I’m with a few close friends I get energized but put me out into the public and expect me to talk to random people? It’s exhausting, especially when you’re at an event where a lot of people are focusing on you in particular. And want to talk to you in particular. (Which is definitely different from group dance performances like I took part in.)
Really, it feels like you’re being put on parade and it just utterly drains me emotionally, physically and mentally. After about 5 or so hours I just get utterly exhausted and have to push through to the end. The event can be enjoyable or not, it doesn’t really make a difference, but what always stays the same is the exhaustion. I can be having the time of my life and just go, “I really think I need a break”. Or I can be totally miserable and say the same thing.
Does anyone else here have this problem? I don’t really get anxious about social interaction because I can go through all of the necessary forms just fine but it does exhaust me.